The last days I wrote about The circle of life and how the world could be changed just be being kind to another. Today my plan was to post something very light, something silly, something that makes one smile rather than think.
Yet at dinner last night we talked about the plane crash. My husband told me that everything seemed to point to suicide. The co-pilot did not want to live anymore and took 149 people with him. When I wrote about embracing death, this was certainly not what I was thinking of. I could not stop thinking Oh my God. Trying to understand, unable to grasp, why? Why would anyone do that?
What carousel of thoughts must have been in his head. This couldn’t have been a spontaneous act. He must have walked around with this idea for how long? It is like running amok. Without any weapons. Just an airplane and earth gravity.
What happened during those 8 minutes? What was he thinking? A peaceful surrender to nature? If you don’t believe in your own purpose in life, can you really believe you are doing other’s a favor by taking them with you? I highly doubt that. Can anyone be that confused?
What happened along the journey of this young men? Was he not able to let people in or was it just not obvious at all that he needed help? Was there anything that could have helped him? I know nothing about his family but they have my sympathy. They have to live with this. With the questions they are being asked, and even more so, with those they will be asking themselves. I hope they will get the support they need.
I also feel for all the families that lost dear ones, so suddenly and so unnecessarily. I heard the students on the plane got their exchange trip ticket through a drawing of lots. Life can be ironic. I can’t help but think of the quote: “Remember that sometimes not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck.”
So many thoughts in my head again. Some many questions. And yet all I wanted to do, is post something light, something silly…but it feels inappropriate right now.
My personal plan for the day: I will tell someone, I am happy they are alive, and part of this complex world. Life might not always be easy, but we can make it worth living. Together.
This is It
and I am It
and You are It
and so is That
and He is It
and She is It
and It is It
and That is That
O it is This
and it is Thus
and it is Them
and it is Us
and it is Now
and Here It is…
and Here We are
so This is It
James Broughton
