26 days — 26 learnings: Part twelve of looking back & looking beyond.
My word for today is:
Lap
Every parent will have at one point heard the sentence: „They grow up so fast.“ And every parent will have had moments, where they’ve thought: „Yes, please!” But then when it happens, it’s suddenly a different story.
Last year, my daughter turned 11, my son, 13. It might well have been the last year, one of my children sat on my lap.
„Can I wear your boots,“ she asks? „Sure honey,“ I say, while I stand shoulder to shoulder next to my son, as he’s getting ready to go off and hit the bus to school.
When I clean up the breakfast table, my eyes hover over the photo collage, hanging on our kitchen wall. Looking at those photos warms me up inside. Being a mom is the best thing that ever happened to me.
I scream;
louder and louder
Then, I sink back
Into the warm water around me
Two more deep breaths
More screaming
Another round
How many more to come?
And then,
it happens
I’m no longer the only one screaming
A little bundle is put into my arms
It has tiny little fingers,
tiny little toes,
looks just slightly wrinkled,
eyes still closed.
My heart is big,
bigger than the sky,
bigger than the ocean
bigger than this world,
Full of
soft emotion
How much love
can a person feel?
Feels unreal
Now, they’ve grown older
Little adults, they’ve become
No more toddlers, on my lap
Though, never
will I forget
How close friends
Pain and Joy are
Moments,
where tears of joy, flow
never go away
They stay with you
Every step on your way
A mom
is a mom
is a mom
And so she will always be
this thought
simple as it is
it pleases me
❤︎
My twelfth learning:
Our lives are made up of dozens, and dozens, and dozens of small moments, and then there are a few, perhaps not even a handful, which make all the difference.
My takeaway for 2018: No matter how busy you are, no matter how many things, you’d like to cram into your agenda. Make time just to be there. Nothing else, just be there.
